domingo, diciembre 23, 2007

New Year’s Resolutions

Each year I resolve with the strongest intent
To be better this year than the last.
And I work very hard; the rules hardly get bent,
But this discipline gets old so fast!

But with this new year I just know I’ll win out,
Just watch how I do and you’ll see!
I’m not going to have yet another blowout;
I’ll be good as I know I can be.

But, if wicked things beckon, and I’m not so strong,
If I weaken and fall on my ast,
I’ll be thankful again that you’ll help me along
As you have during all new years past.

Happy New Year!

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By Joanna Fuchs

I wish you all a very happy New Year 2008, filled with joy and happiness and good time!

Thank you all for the good memories on this year and wish the new one will be even better!

sábado, noviembre 17, 2007

A New Beginning

A new day awakes. It does every day, even sometimes we are too busy or used to our life to realize it. Everyday may seem similar, though everyday we are changing and days cannot be always the "same".

It is often interesting to observe that days, weeks, years pass by and when we look back we can realize how life goes on and how each person we do know has been evoluting differently even we used to share the same backgrounds years ago.

Sometimes people we thought we would have always as close friends eventually change and take different directions we would never expect. Some others keep living in memory of how the good days were and wondering if they would come back after all.
Others take actions and move earth and water to recover those who did disappear leaving good memories on their heart.

We all live in the same timing, we see the same sun rising, but how we live now and before is totally different depending on the person's experience and view of life. Our choices determine our experiences, how we can see our own life and how we can live our future.

Therefore it would be also interesting to know not only the options we have, but also how we do choose. Which are the motivations that drive people to consider or look for options and finally make a choice and accomplish it for real. Because all in all, to decide it's not easy, but it can certainly change our life, not only to gain experience but also on how other people perceives we are.

When I think back on how I started to change my "destiny", there are two things that come to my mind: the well known as "the land of the rising sun", and the big need to "create" something good on my life. "Create" does not necesarily mean to get on something material, but in my case it was more on "how to move on my life" - or how to create myself.


Japan, the land of the rising sun, inspired me for years enough to be curious on how different cultures are. I started to know about Japan simply because I once found a book to learn japanese in the bookstore and decided to buy it.

I never expected it would change my life completely. I was just curious to know how japanese characters could be written and to learn simply a little bit on how did japanese people communicate with those "strange" symbols ("Kanjis" and "kanas") among themselves.

I truly never had intention to learn the language nor even look forward to visit there. I was just curious. But since the time I started to understand how symbolic their language was, at the same time bizarre for a simple spanish teenager, I became more and more interested not only in their language, but also in their culture, their people, their politics, music, fashion and every aspect of the country. I became so interested that I even read Japanese news more than Spanish!

Therefore, I have had often a wish on moving and not stop. It was very difficult for me to make a first step to move on, but once done, the reward you get is really precious. You learn how to choose and how to create your own itinerary in life. You learn that your life belongs to you and you can accomplish anything you are longing for.

My wish was to discover the world at that time more than developing a good career, and Japan was going to be definetely my first step. I was already so much willing to go and experience how japanese lifestyle was, how people thought, how story was like.

It's a long story to tell how things went but I can say that I learnt a lot and partly I was so touched by the culture that luckily I could take good things back to my own which define currently part of my character.

It is not only what I saw and felt, but also how you can see over it and learn something from it.

Later on experiences and choices I have made, remind me that there is a common wish inside me on every single step I take. I have learnt to choose and create the direction I want and wait patiently for the proper time to make the effort or slash into the chance.
It was not easy for me to change my future and try new things, but as long as you try, you learn that there is always something good to learn from it and that the world does not move unless you really care to build it on. I wanted to change my life, my views, I knew there was a world waiting to be discovered and so I tried to learn from it.


There are often two sorts of people in the world; those who stare at how the world changes, and those who make own effort to change it. What type are you in?

One of the most respected figures in Japan was the Samurai. Well known worldwide, it often refers to a strong loyal warrior who fights for justice by his own.

These samurais, even being poor, they were loyal and made a history in Japan. Because they fought to change their world.

Even though the original name and characteristics differ from the westernized figure, the origins of the samurai are based on what the japanese culture named "Bushido" (武士道), a japanese code of conduct meant to be "the Way of The Warrior".


There are seven virtues that lead a samurai's life under the Bushido way of life. These include;



Rectitude (義, gi) - Meaning taking the right choices. Believe in own justice, not in what other people says, but in what you believe.


Courage (勇, yū) - Be strong when others feel weak. Live life fully, complete and wonderfully. Encourage yourself to be strong and smart, knowing your weakness and scareness to make yourself stronger.

Benevolence (仁, jin) - If there is a chance to help others, do it. And if there is no oportunity, create it even if it takes you out of your original way.


Respect (礼, rei) - Respect others, even your enemies. Do not be cruel.

Honesty (誠, makoto or 信 shin) - Sincerity. A Samurai value remains on what his words say and make things he promise accomplished.

Honour, Glory (名誉, meiyo) - A Samurai is onwer of himself. Choices you make and take reflect who you are.

Loyalty (忠義, chūgi) - A Samurai is loyal to those who are under his protection. His words are like fingerprints, will follow them wherever he goes.

Another two characteristics are Wisdom (智, chi) and Care for the aged (悌, tei), which were added up later on time to the figure of the samurai.


I have often had appreciation to the figure of a samurai. Its inner power, not only physically but also mentally provides him virtue enough to balance whatever happening in his life and take a proper direction in which he can find happiness, and pursue his dream until it can be finally accomplished.

Moreover, he owns respect by respecting others and being loyal to his principles. Its character reflects his integrity as a human being and he is not only willing to fullfill his life but also among the way, do whatever possible for those who are near them to be happy.


Probably he wouldn't be rich, but at least he can control his life properly and gain a good environment and experience in his life.

The image of a samurai for me is quite interesting. Words like honour, respect and integrity still surround nowaday's lifestyle and even these terms are sometimes forgotten in westernized countries, as you travel in asia you find that honestity and loyality to people is one of the common backgrounds, in whatever age.

A new beginning has come for me after my year in Malaysia and every single day I wake up I remind of all these people I have met, all these values that I have been touched by years, and let the experience I have had lead me wisely into a new day, a new step and a new decition in my life.




Every day is a happening in life. Where we are now, where we want to go is made up day after day within our actions and thoughts. What we see and touch, what we feel, what we hear, what we wish will drive us bit by bit into taking actions for what we are longing for. Even the road may seem long way to reach its end, the rectitude, our attitude towards our own principles will be the common background to lead us to change our life.

Never give up on the way, fight for what you want and fear not!

viernes, noviembre 02, 2007

Desert in the Sky


If you have ever had the luck to travel around Egypt, you certainly know that this country is a lot worth to visit. It has truly many temples, museums, activities to do under the hot sunlight and the warm breeze during its daytime.


Once year ago I was there with a good friend of mine for a week, and we could enjoy the whole trip since its beginning until the end, a non-stop "race" starting in the south, Abu Symbel, then Aswan, going up to north, passing through Luxor and El Cairo among other cities.


Egypt is full of temples everywhere and most of them remain in quite good condition, which makes you feel like living thousands of years ago. Their culture and devotation towards their gods and pharaons was really amazing and they did create so many well known statues and temples to honour them.

Temples like Ramses, Isis and Horus are very well known and perfectly drawn with lots of details on their walls, to keep respect and history on how great they were at that time.

Three of the most famous architectural constructions are without doubt the pyramids of Micerinos, Kefren and Keops. Each of them is astonishing and can be seen from quite far away distance all clearly, since their height and shape is really big.

Scientists calculate that it took over 2.300.000 stone blocks to build up the Keops pyramid. Each block could weight an average of 2 tones, but some of them could weight even more, reaching up to 60 tones each, especially on their base. They have estimated that the pyramid was also originally fully covered by 27.000 white sand blocks which were mostly taken away by a big earthquake at the beginning of the 14th century. Nowadays, only the top of Keops pyramid is still covered.


One fact that seems not obvious at the beginning is that, the pyramids do not have four sides, but eight. Each side splits into two because they are built starting from both edges at the same time, and bit by bit going inside to the center (not drawing a straight line from one edge to another) to finally meet up at the center of the side.
Only the base of the pyramid is perfectly squared. From the second level and above, egyptians built up the pyramid splitting bit by bit the original four sides into eight.


Therefore, this effect cannot be really appreciated from far away but only if you have a closer look at the pyramid.

Not only this, but going into the pyramid to see what is inside its quite an adventure. The corridors are narrow, and you descend around 14 meters bending your back, your knees and your whole body!

Egyptians really took care on how to protect and avoid robberies on the tombs and treasures they had been acumulating, in such smart ways.


Since I was kid I used to like Egypt and the trip I did with my friend was very enjoyable, even under such a hot weather!

When you do look at the pyramids and see the blue sky surrounding its top, and the endless desert in which they are placed, you can really feel how the time has passed since then until nowadays.

Every single block will remain there for years even after generations. It is simply great.


If you do look around, you will realize that the desert is not only on the ground, but also the sky is empty, like if time had stopped many centuries ago.


You can just imagine that if the bus wouldn't have taken you that far from the city to the pyramids, you would most probably loose the way in the middle of the desert, because there is no possibility to even go back looking at the wide, blue sky. Everything looks just the same. And you would feel lost so easily.


These days for me aren't easy. It is like if I were in the middle of the desert, staring at bright monuments that could mean good choices in life. Either monument I decide to get in and explore what treasure is hidden inside, means a choice I can make and I know once I move in I may find a very valuable treasure which can fullfill part of me.



I do not know exactly which pyramid I should get in to explore, even I do know either way will bring me something good. But the choice is not easy. I am afraid to be trapped or choose the wrong one.

When I look at the pyramids as a choice to explore, it could look scary to get in. In fact I am. And when I am, I tend to isolate myself, try to think about it twice before making a choice.

In this silence, I do build up unconsciously a wall that protects me from any noise in order to feel peaceful, so that I can think properly.
The same peace someone would feel being into the pyramid discovering what is inside. I keep quiet then, I keep calm. But trapped at the same time.

Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

This is how I behave sometimes, when I am confused or when I am angry.

And this is how I feel now. Confused. Trapped in choices, isolated of the world, expecting some light to help my way out and finally do break these walls.

Time will tell. That's the only truth I know. So far.

miércoles, octubre 17, 2007

Life taken

Being back in Spain after one year absence, one realizes not only that time passes so quickly but also that the life you used to have is no longer the same.

Before I went to Malaysia I owned a small apartment, which I had to rent because I moved overseas to work. The family that is currently living there are nice, they have a small kid, the parents go to work everyday, they have a normal life as many other families in Spain.

I am the owner of their place, and monthly they pay me the rental fee. Their place was supposed to be my place before they came in. Now it's still part of me, but it's no longer mine since they are living there.

The streets of my town haven't changed much. Time seems stopped while I was away and there are not so many changes overall. My family doing daily life same as before, my mother's cooks and food still same as one year ago.


My friends keep up moving and talking the same friendly talks as usual. The cinema where we used to go it's still there, the shops are opening every single day. There is still an open market every wednesday where people goes and shops vegetables, fruits, clothes, whatever they sell. My dog seems to be a bit older but still has the same hair colour and young energy that he uses to have.

My parents, brother, sister, friends do the same things as usual. Nothing much has changed in my town since I left.

Nothing much. Except me.

How I see life here after such a wide change in one year is something I am still considering. I have traveled a lot, I have gained experience professionally and personally. I have been to Malaysia, Singapore, Thailand, Laos, Cambodia, Vietnam, Indonesia, Myanmar, Philippines, Japan.

I have worked hard and also enjoyed as much as possible during this year. I have made very good friends who have been always (and still are) supportive and they all have lighted my life.
I really appreciate every single chance and minute that I spent overseas. Really...

It is not only that I miss Malaysia, but also I do feel that I do not fit here in Spain anymore. I have been living in Spain for almost 30 years, it is supposed that I am able to make a life here, find a job, get married, do as all spanish people does here.

However during the past years and especially now after this year in Malaysia, I do feel displaced from my origins. Of course I want a stable job, a house, get married as everyone does. But I am not the same person, even though my house is still here, my friends from highschool are still around, my dog still comes to hug and play with me everytime he sees me.


Despite all this, my life has been taken. The places I used to go, the material world is still here and remains unchanged. My family of course they keep me happy and I am also happy to see my friends here.

However my thoughts, how I saw my life before and now is totally different. I have changed.


I did offer my apartment to a family so that they could make a living. Their life has also changed, with or without their notice, during this year. The new coworkers are now probably in similar situation I was one year ago. My office is (was) certainly still there in Kuala Lumpur, my chair, my computers, my small world. And back to Spain, my town, my friends are still here and will be here for me anytime no matter what.


The Petronas Twin Towers, KLCC, Timesquare, The Green Man, Ciccios, Jalan Alor, Petaling Street, Midvalley, Cameron Highlands, and many more...the unforgettable nights spent in Malaysia will remain in my memory until my very last days. My mind is still there, my soul still aims to go back, but I am physically in a different place where I do not fit, where amazingly I have been for almost 30 years.

To be back is not easy, to settle down is sometimes hard, but all in all, I do keep trying. I want my life to be like what it has been during this past year and I will do all efforts possible to make it happen.

My thoughts were improved, and I am really looking forward to challenge myself and let's see where I end up. I will not give up any single chance. Even my life was taken, in a sense, it still belongs to me and I am sure I will recover and remake it for better. I swear.

jueves, septiembre 27, 2007

Gates Open


The gates at KLIA airport will open soon for me. I will be checking in and leaving Malaysia in less than 48 hours. My destination this time, after being in all south east asia for a year, will be Spain, my hometown, my family, my friends.
I am leaving.



The apartment where I have been living for a year, which I could finally call "home" will close its doors and a new life will start there again with different tenants.


While all this happens, too busy at work and packing for leaving, I almost have no time to write in the blog as much as I wish, nor even time to meet friends to say good bye to them. I really wish I had more free time, because I really had a good time seeing you all, but unluckily I didn't really have a time...

New gates open while old gates not always close. My year in Malaysia has been certainly awesome and I wish I could be there again...


I promise I will be back, I will work hard for it, just wanted to say to all my friends, THANK YOU SO MUCH for a wonderful time and see you soon again!!!

miércoles, septiembre 05, 2007

Crossing Bridges

Laos is probably the most unknown country in south east asia, at least as long as I live I had never expected to go, nor heard of anyone visiting there before for tourism.

One week ago I went there with my friends and we had a really good time.

The jouney started from Kuala Lumpur taking a bus to Singapore, and from there, flying to Udon Thani which is the closest thai airport to the frontier of Laos.

Vientiane, its capital, it's a quiet place, not yet invaded by tourists, and still keeps the charm of and old city providing traditional services that is on the way to be restructured to attract foreigners. We could visit there the most important temples and then on the very next day we headed to Van Vieng, along a three hours minibus that drove us up to the mountains.

The views were very nice, surrounded by green fields that remind me of Cameron Highlands in Malaysia. We did some stops on the way and I could see how Laos people lived, usually in wooden houses, a small village in the mountain with very basic services even though some "modern" essentials are not missed - even in a wooden house, there is still satellite tv, and it really reminded of my trip to Cambodia.


They would usually ride motorbikes from one village to another, and those who cannot afford it will simply go walking or by bike. The people in the villages are very peaceful, kind, warm hearted, alike cambodians and thais.


Van Vieng views of the river and mountains were exceptional. We didn't have time to visit the caves as we stayed there for a night only, but the town itself and the night market were nice to see and worth to spend some time shopping.

On the very next day we went to Luang Prabang, after a 5 hours bus ride. There are a lot of temples to be seen there and the boat along Mekong river for a sunset shot is very nice. We could see monks, ride on a tuk-tuk all the way long and even go to massage places. Worth to visit!!

The trip was quite packed and I wish I had more time to visit Van Vieng and Luang Prabang, but all in all it was a worth experience and very good to know how different asian countries are, since it was my dream to visit and get to know part of the culture and lifestyle.

The other day I realized that since I am in Malaysia I have been travelling for almost all south east asian countries. Only Philippines and Myanmar left to visit before I go back to Spain at the end of the month, and these two countries I will be visiting in short.

It is amazing that I could do so many trips during this year in spite of my few days off at work (8+4). Yet it seems that I came to Malaysia to travel and not to work!! haha :):)

One thing that will keep in my mind about this trip is how I entered to Singapore from Malaysia and also how we entered in Laos from Thailand. In both situations, the countries are connected by a bridge.

The bus from Kuala Lumpur to Singapore takes around 5 hours to reach, and on the way you have to stop to check your belongings and passport control. Then go back to the bus, cross the bridge and reach Singaporean's immigration.
Finally you are in Singapore.


Similar thing happens in Udon Thani, you have to take a bus or van to go to the frontier, issue your visa, then take a local bus that goes through a bridge and then at the end into Laos itself.

In the past, certainly rivers divided countries and the only way to go through was building up a bridge. The problem of finding a way to visit all places connected by bridges passing just once for each bridge with no way back, was also the origin of the theory of graphs and multiple applications nowadays make use of the famous theory of Euler and Königsberg bridges to be solved in computer science.

When I passed these bridges to go to Singapore and Laos, I reminded of it. Each bridge is leading you to a new place, a new step that is still unknown at first.

Not only as a part of traveling, but we are also travelers in life. What will happen in the future is often uncertain and it strongly depends on our lifestyle.

Some people likes to settle down and lead a comfortable life, some others challenge to change their life for what they really wish to accomplish.

Whatever type of person, each of us has a path to be discovered and achievements to be done. Nobody's great, nobody's wrong. From the simple family living in a wooden house in Laos to the most rich man in the world, all we share a wish to live and do things and enjoy whatever we want to do.

Our lives since we are born are alike a place which is connected to some others by bridges, where bridges are the choices we have, and each of them we decide to take will lead us to another part or experience in life. Sometimes the steps will be short, sometimes high, sometimes we may not want to try.


Not all the places can be seen, but most of them we will experience through trying different options and directions. And it is by trying that our life will be enriched. If we are lucky, we will find people along the same bridge that will accompany us in the path of life. Some others will be just traveling around and it will be nice to see and share even for a while.

I wish I could pass through all bridges, visit all places and connect and experience every single destination that each bridge is leading me to. The choices are always there. Different worlds, different experiences, different views of the same reality. It all depends on where we are, how we get there and in what timing.

Bridges may be wooden made, strong as steel or even irreal. Destinations maybe great, just nice or the worst of all. However, whatever direction we take, there will be always a way to go back, start off again wisely with the gained experience and keep trying.

Thats the cycle of life.